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I am unable to make a video as of right now so I figured I'd just write. Today has been really rough. I have been doing tons of research on transitioning and right now everything just seems so impossible. Like, money wise and finding someone to work with me. My weight seems impossible. Everything just seems so impossible today and on top of that I came across my exes web page. It was just so ridiculous. She met her boyfriend because I introduced them. She started dating him about a week after we broke up. Not even. She lies to everyone to cover up the fact that we were actually together. She's a stupid selfish bitch. And the only satisfaction I get is knowing she's probably pregnant and not going anywhere with her life. And she got uglier since we broke up. But whatever. She's stupid and I have definitely done better. It just really upset me and made me sad. And everything today just makes me feel so bad about myself and my life. In fact the only brightness in my life right now is my fiance. We finally set a wedding date. May 16 2015. So I'm truly looking forward to that. She's everything to me. I just wish I could get everything else to fall into place now.